God's Train Part two

"Wow I wonder if anyone noticed that?" I thought but I was determined to have a good time. Now on God's train you never ever stop the train for anything or any body. Only he can let people on or off. I knew this, but hey I was having fun. So I stopped and let some people on. They were so happy they could have kissed me. The engine is the largest part of the train and it has lots of seats and refreshments.
   Who do I see first off? Well Neil of course. We were glad to see each other. It was like old times again. (those old times are never as good as we pretend them to be.) So I put the train on cruise control and step away. Not my best move, after reflecting back.
   "What are you doing at the drivers seat?" He asked. "You don't have a licences to drive." he interjected. "Just taken a spin " I laughed. I think he even knew it wasn't a good job to take the position of God. But I didn't care. I was a bit upset with him anyway. Life wasn't what I expected. We started smoking pot, drinking and just having a great time. I noticed that there wasn't as many people in there. Some how I must have been too distracted to notice them leave.
    After awhile we decided it was a good idea to get back together. But there was some things that HE had to change before I would want to marry him. Since I wasn't much of a drinker The fact is I had quit drinking on a regular base's. It made me mean and sluttish like. And I didn't like that. So I dared him to quit. Not thinking he would give it a go, but he did. But he wanted me to spend every minute with him. He started telling me I couldn't be friends with other men I knew ; well one man in particular. Dwight, he was my best friend. how could he ask such a thing, but I agreed. (Better to be with someone miserable than to be alone after all)
   He began to change; not for the better either. When I rejected his sexual advances, he ceased talking to me. I know people should talk things out, but it was no use. So I got back into the drivers seat not noticing a curve up a head and derailed. Oh what a mess. I could hear other people crying from far away. I looked around and decided to go back to my seat.
   When I get to my car, every thing was a mess. The air bags were down, friends were shooting those looks that just made me feel all the worse. I got to my seat, there was God sleeping so I thought. "Father" I said he opened his eyes. There was no judgmental looks, he smiled "Yes Terri?" he replied "Did you learn anything on your drive?" He asked. I lowered my head and broke down in tears, he took me into his arms and said "I love you my child, come to me when you are bored or hurting, I will always listen to you." He then got up and told everyone it was alright. I sat down humiliated, some of my church friends came over and told me they loved me to. While others gave me that "You suck look."
   Looking back now I realize that it is never good to get in a seat that I don't belong in. That I had lost track of what is important. Being able to accept things how they were. If God wanted me to have a mate he would provide one. And that I'm never alone. God is just a prayer away.